Wagon?? What wagon?

It's true. Not only have I fallen off of the weight loss wagon - but it is no longer in sight! I was down 8 pounds....I know, I know - not a lot, but a loss is a loss! I'm terrified to get back on the scale. I did SOOOOOOO good until Friday night & then I lost it! I'll break it down for you - but no judging!

Friday: Stayed within my WW points until.....my brother Dylan came over that night to sleep over & around midnight he was hungry so we headed to Wendy's. I had a Jr Bacon Cheeseburger & a value fry. THEN - I made myself a root beer float. My thought process was "Well - if you're going to go over your points - then you might as well just go over your points!" Not only was it terrible that I ate that much - but it was freaking midnight for hells sake! BONUS POINTS: I did exercise today.

Saturday: My first trip to the cheesecake factory. The food I'll give a 6 out of 10 - but the red velvet cheesecake gets a 12 out of 10. Talk about FABULOUS! Red velvet cake between vanilla cheesecake with cream cheese frosting & white chocolate shavings down the side. I'll wait while you wipe the drool off of your keyboard............heaven, right?

So - after lunchie we had a bridal shower for my cousin. They had a spread of food - but I did not partake - until we were getting ready to leave - it is a good hour and a half ride home so I needed food - right?? Then I made myself a turkey sandwich.....accidentally ate a small brownie & small lemon bar. I WASN'T EVEN HUNGRY! But - I love turkey sandwiches with provolone cheese on a white roll. Then my fatness got a Pepsi at the gas station. YUM.

...........but I totally paid for this binge eating. I was sooooooooooo sick! I can't remember the last time I had been so sick. It was embarrassing!! My little sister was over & was probably like "holy crap - you're disgusting" & my husband was probably like "wow - this is cause for divorce papers" I was hating life.

Sunday: Back on the wagon! I had toast & jelly for breakfast - only 2 WW points & was planning on turkey steak salads for lunch - until after church Casey said "Let's go to Wendy's" Why didn't I say no?? I'm going to say I said OK because my dishwasher is broken - & I hate dishes. I got a small combo - so not too terrible. And really - when you're checking account is $200 in the hole - you or your spouse should have the self control to say 'NO MORE SPENDING'. It sucks that we're both weak sauce.

Casey's family came over Sunday night to play cards & everyone brought something to eat. I made homemade choc chip/toffee cookies - delicious! Then we had German chocolate brownies - chips & salsa - more choc chip cookies - Doritos - cheese nips - carrots & watermelon. I had my fair share of chips & salsa & watermelon & cookies. THEN - after everyone left I thought "I better eat a few more cookies because tomorrow I'm starting over again.". . . . .I lied.

Monday: Back on the wagon - again! Cheerios & milk for breakfast=4 WW points. Those damn cookies kept looking at me. It's like the were pounding on the sides of the Tupperware & screaming for me to eat them. So I had one. Then another. Then another! The whole day was downhill from there. I had a total of 6 cookies - mac & cheese - panda express - a Pepsi - & some Cheetos when I got home from work at 11:30 pm.

My brain believes that if I'm going to fail - the I am going to TOTALLY FAIL. Okay - today - for real - the wagon is back in sight. WISH ME LUCK!